10 September, 2007

wishing for something else

i guess my relationship has reached a point where i'm looking for something. while i know that he is a "husband" material boyfriend, he is definitely not the boyfriend material. our courtship days were very short-lived. he did not do much during the courtship. he simply jumped a few steps and plunged into assuming i would be the girlfriend. i noticed one of my NIE buddies seemed to be chasing someone. somehow i can relive those thrill and enjoyment of being pampered and being chased... will i get to go through again? of course i do not want to change a boyfriend. but i do wished that he could shower more attnetion on me. let me go through the courtship feeling again. once again... i wonder if anyone is reading this... one thing is for sure... my bf is not going to see this anytime in the next 5 years.


{4:48 PM}

I wish I could soar
And tell the world...
I want to be with you